For the past two years, I've had a livejournal. It has been one outlet of my hopes, frustrations, and dreams. From here, many people have both friended and unfriended me based on how they feel about the way I run my little side of the internet universe. It's been fun, really. I honestly can say I enjoyed each and every part of it.

But I've changed a lot in this past year and a half. My perspective on life has changed. Sure, I'm still the happy-go-lucky, funny, and overall sincere person that I've been trying to be all of my life, but there are some parts of me that are a little..different. In that respect, it is up to you on how you judge me as a person based on these changes. I am more aware of life and the underlying tones of joy or manipulation. I am experienced in happiness and failure. I'm not as ignorant about truth as I used to be.

anymore. The past will remain in the past. I'm glad I was able to chronical sophomore year to senior year in high school so well. They were some of the happiest and frightening and depressing years of my life thus far. But I'm entering a new chapter of life, not just from college, but from my own mental state.

If you're still interested in me, please at any time add grandsummoner to your friend pages.


A thousand years, a thousand more,
A thousand times a million doors to eternity
I may have lived a thousand lives, a thousand times
An endless turning stairway climbs
To a tower of souls
If it takes another thousand years, a thousand wars,
The towers rise to numberless floors in space
I could shed another million tears, a million breaths,
A million names but only one truth to face
-Sting, A Thousand Years

I have...no regrets
-Yuna, FFX

As of tonight, I will be updating crimsonrhapsody no more.

So remember when I said in _catchphrase_ Yuna is like Sephiroth and Vincent's daughter? Well, I have a running playlist for Yuna in Catchphrase (yes... because I'm weird and I like playlists and my iPod and music are my life get over it) and I decided to share the two songs I have for her and her papas including the images. shahni already saw them, as she was having a bad day a couple of weeks ago and I showed them to her. Oh, as did rokubantaichou because she's the sex though she seems to hate Tidus and Yuna being happy together...evil little woman! ;_;




( Yay for manipulation! )

I have other songs too, such as Rufus'(older brother/best friend) and Riku's(kid brother) YunaCP songs. I really want a song for the three brothers of Advent Children, as Yuna kind of plays mommy/sister to them. (I use that term loosely, as...Mother would get made). Oh, I would also love a Hojo YunaCP song, as he's freakin' me out!!! AHHH!!!
Rikku and Tidus don't have one, as I have them on my FFX playlists XD

And that's about it!

Short story: My Teacher-crush stripped for me and I died a little and I got into Loyola in Baltimore.

Long story:
1) Okay, I was in Orchestra, and Teacher-crush is my conductor. It was cool, because usually since he plays cello, he just works with the strings, but he didn't today because he's awesome and sexy and wonderful ^_^
I said I was cold. The window was open, and I wanted to close it. So I asked if I could....
...and he unbuttoned his shirt a little and said "Well, you can have my shirt if you're cold...." *smirk*

Before you get ideas in your head, realize that he has this relationship with all his students, especially the seniors as we are all about... five years apart from him (18 and 23) and when I say all, I mean boys included (and he's straight, so we know he's joking lol).

...I wanted to die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*blush* I couldn't even think of a retort (as I usually do) and I declined his offer and shuffle-blushed my way to the window. Not to mention he called me out again when I started having a gigglefit over it and I literally almost fainted again (he didn't button back up his shirt for the rest of rehearsal, as I think he forgot XDXD))


...I still can't believe I have a crush on a teacher, though. That's so unlike me o.o


2) ...well....that doesn't need to be explained, except THEY DIDN'T TELL ME IF I GOT INTO THE HONORS PROGRAM!!! GAHHHHHHH!!! NOT FAIR NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!!! *cries a little*



( Wishing you were somehow here again...knowing we must say goodbye. )

I got accepted to Boston University...


....AND GLIPSES OF CHINA!

I'M GOING TO CHINA THIS SUMMER!!!!

*dances*

Omigodomigodomigooooooddd!!!!!!!!!!YESSSSSSS!!!! ...I love how I get more excited to go to China than getting into a college....XD


and in honor of my glory of this moment, I made a new _catchphrase_ character! Since we can bring back the dead as of...today, I though stylishsumeragi was perfect to scare our little sumerazuka...oh, I can't waaaaait to freak out Subaru!

....sooo, American University not only accepted me but wants me to enroll in a leadership program outside of the arts and inside...um... what? Politics and international leaders of tomorrow?!?!?!? ...someone care to properly explain to me what the Washington Mentorship Program is, as I think my brain just broke. HAPPY KINGDOM HEARTS 2 DAY!

So, there's a lot of things going on tomorrow. Two are the most notable ones, I believe, for me.

1) I go back to school after a loooong Spring Vacation with my funky twists (that's my hair, people XD). I really should straighten it and see how long it's gotten over all. Well, that and because last year it was too long for a proper FFX-2 Yuna, but not for a FFX Yuna, and since that's this years theme, it might just be friggin' perfect.

2) The Kingdom Hearts fandom and the Internet will EXPLODE! Omigod, franchise say what? Tomorrow is the release folks. I'm a little excited and scared to see what people post on their journals.

Something I was thinking about today randomly: hyujin wibbling to redheads, as Lindsay Lohan was on TV. It was funny. I just kept thinking about Nia and laughing my head off XD.



....let's wait until tomorrow, okay?

By the way: My name is not Kam, it is not Rhapsody. It is, for a while at least, KH2 Riku stole the Keyblade to My Heart. Got it?

Kingdom Hearts II

...omigod....

It just hit me how close we are from it's US drop...


...I just saw the intro to it, out of curiousity...to see if I was still interested after beating KH



.....I fucking cried it was so beautiful.

( Why I cried...KHII intro spoiler )

Edit: On a slightly sexier note....Riku, godDAMN *squeals*!

I'm so tired *yawn* It absolutely sucks that spring vacation is almost over and I have to go back to school on Monday. However, before I get all weepy and mopey, I should say that if you haven't joined _catchphrase_ then you better have a good reason, or else you're all an ugly. That's right, I said it AN UGLY! <- That's for you rokubantaichou and you know it. (just stop calling Tidus that or you'll make my inner Yuna cry) I'm a mod now! Which makes me happy, but I might have to miss some days as not only do I have school, I have French AP ;_;

That being said! I got accepted into another college, but rejected by one too. However, if anything, I thought it would have been the reverse of what actually happened. Check it out.

I got rejected from Washington University in St. Louis, the college that has been giving me the most trouble out of all the colleges I applied for. I literally hate this one by now just because of the amount of crap I've had to deal with. Not to mention that this was one of MY SAFETY SCHOOLS. They actually revoked my application once BECAUSE ONE FINANCIAL AID DOCUMENT WASN'T SENT. EXCUSE ME IF I CAN'T FIND MY DAD SOMETIMES! IT WAS, IF YOU DIDN'T READ THE FINE PRINT, MY NON-CUSTODIAL PARENT! KNOW WHAT? FREAK NOT JOINING CATCHPHRASE! YOU, MY DEAR WASH-U, ARE AN UGLY.

*ahem*

I did, however, get accepted to SARAH LAWRENCE COLLEGE. So, Wash-U, put that in your non-custodial parent form and smoke it for all I care. Even my cousin who's doing a doctorate there said that I got accepted into the better school! They even wrote me a little letter saying how thrilled they were to admit me into their performing arts program. So boo-ya-ka!
...too bad it's so close to home *walks to the other side of the city*

Excuse me, I'm going to study French for two hours to help me on my AP and then SLEEP!

P.S. My Yuna icon sends the unsent to the Farplane yard, bizatch!

Edit:( Yuna say what? What picture is this? )

He's here ^_^

and say the 'I'm not wearing underwear today' song from Avenue Q...







*pwnedthedork!*

Actual Game Family-
Rikku, Gippal, Baralai
*hinthintwedon'thaveatidushint!*

Daughter-
Mr. Valentine and Mr. Sephiroth... and they aren't even paired up yet!
Big Sister-
little brother (Riku), little prince (Ouji from katamari!), and little angel (Colette from Tales of Symphonia)
Psuedo Mom-
Kadaj-kun, Yazoo-kun (who has just been slashed with Ansem XDXD), and Loz-kun (who's lost and makes me want to give him a puppy, like kaasan did!)
Best Friend-
Rufus Shinra... no, I'm not lying!
Other friends-
The Turks...no, I'm still not lying, and Ky Kiske... who she hasn't met yet.
Victim (or they want her to be)
Dr. Hojo, Ansem, and anyone else they are taking down (aka her three boys ;_;). And someone said something about Seymour joining, which makes me shudder. Ten-to-one says that even if I don't remember who it might of been, IT WAS SHAHNI!

Meanwhile, After messing with Eclipse's head, Raenef V just went to go find Kurai who finished messing with Hitsugaya's head and making friends with Hinamori is currently messing with Albel Nox's head. Scratch that. She and Son Goku from Saiyuki are playing hide and go seek in Hell...or was it Tokyo? Lucifer is doing the same thing to Ky Kiske (giggle) while he waits for Zak to get out of the shower, as he's going to surprise him XD and Yoruichi is going to adopt Colette... and surprise Urahara XD


P.S. Riku and Yuna are going to SAVE THE WORLDS! XD, sorry, kinda yes, kinda no, but I really wanted to say that!
Enough _catchphrase_ stuff ^_^

Oh, this too:

I love the fact that despite this all being the fault of God [from Angel Sanctuary], it's the SquarEnix characters that screw things up first... typical

oooh, I can see it now. Yuna's going to die of blushing from the Turks before she even gets to Mr. Valentine and Mr. Sephiroth..... thanks Reno, really XD

I love how I can't go to sleep unless I have my iPod. I completely forgot how addictive music is.

Two years ago, my mom bought the house (aka me and her) a portable CD player. She forgot about it. I broke it. To this day she doesn't know that it's broken (I'm gonna buy her a new one before I go to college and explain to her what happened between the dance studio and... outside of the dance studio).

So, it broke. No biggie. I have my stereo with my CD player and a radio if I wanna listen to it... to bad ALL OF MY CDS MIRACULOUSLY WENT AWAY. I have a feeling it's at the dance studio. Does anyone see a pattern?

No music, other than stuff I downloaded off the computer. Since the computer is situated in my mothers room, unless she falls asleep on the couch (Mon-Fri) or I have to do homework, I'm not allowed in the room passed a certain time. Oh, I'm allowed any other time. She just doesn't like hearing the sound of typing (aka last night around 10 she was like "WTF?!?" when I logged onto catchphrase because I WAS BORED!)

Enough about that. Dad bought me an iPod for Christmas/My Birthday and I was happy. People, like iwakura and moonshine_nymph gave me music and my iPod is teh happy.

...except it died last night. It ran out of power at about 12 and my mom was fast asleep in her room.


...


I couldn't sleep for four hours before I dozed off. I woke up how? Not happy, which is rare only because I am the happiest morning person during vacation. As soon as my mom left for work, I bolted into her room, which is where I am now.

God I can't wait until I get my laptop. Mom says I need one for college anyway, which is true, but I just need some computer time to myself. Speaking of which, does anyone know what I should do when moving one iPod to another computer? My cousin says plugging it into another computer erases all the songs O_o.

Oh, also. My iPod is my soul source for playlists. Everytime I'm feeling a certain way or feeling a certain fandom (which is now currently in my _catchphrase_ luff fandom) I make a playlist. So, I wanted to make a Yuna in ....Gaia... playlist, as that was the last character I RPed and...

...well, you know. Four hours, no music, no sleep. God I'm such a baby....






...if you got to this point, you're my dearest friend.


iPod has finished charging and I finished making my playist. I'm going to bed. Ciao for a few hours.


Edit: Random cheer- My Catchphrase away message ^_^

-Catchphrase RP-

(Yuna and Mr. Valentine talking about Aeris and SOLDIER)

Mr. Sephiroth:... I advise you both to drop the topic. This minute.
The only sword Aeris has Ever been accquainted with of mine.. is Masamune and it never went Near that part of her. Ever.

Mr Valentine: .. I don't think there's much left to continue.. Sephiroth.
.... ugh. Sephiroth, please.. do not adress things like that?. There -are- some things best unsaid.. no matter how true they may be.

Yuna: ....
((ooc: I think Yuna just fainted XD))

Yuna just walked into Edge and found Mr. Rufus and (now) Mr. Rude... so, I went to google to see what Yuna would look like as a Turk, just for fun.

I found a picture of YuRiPa turkstyle, which is cute (in Yuna's case at least. I'm like "Bweh?!?" for Rikku and Paine. It's a nice style though, so I'm not complaining. Rikku might wear her outfit, but I'm not too sure Paine would be happy with hers.

Here's the Yuna picture I know a certain guy josh_kakashi ... say what, who said that?!? will like the Rikku version lol.

Mind you, I'm not saying in Catch Phrase Yuna will become a Turk... oh no, far from it... now... then again, I really don't know, do I?

And if you look closely at Yuna's left arm in that picture, you'll notice who her Turk outfit was based off of you get three guesses and the last two don't count lol And for all you know that might be a future cosplay, just because it isn't neeearrlly as revealing as the other two. And Yuna as a Turk is a cute thought.

I would like to say this for the record: I wasn't expecting Rude to show up, but now that he did I'm like yayness!

Edit: Dr. Hojo just said he had plans for Yuna.... O_O That's what she gets for telling Vincent-papa he was there!

myu just gave me an idea... well, not really, but she is awesome and took the idea I had and said it first.

AnimeNEXT- Her as Urahara, me as Yoruichi.

So, here's the big question....

WHAT COLOR HAIR SHOULD I DO?

Because... I know I look good with black hair. That is my hair color. And I'm not too sure I can pull off dark purple....

okay, that's a lie

If I do the normal outfit, then dark purple rules
If I do the shyunshin outfit, then black rules
If I do the *Uraharaandmewerereallyclosewhenweweregrowingup* outfit (aka, when she had short hair, then... I dunno what rules.

If anyone cares.... reply... please, because I know that this will plague me for the rest of the night.

I love this picture. This was back in special olympics this year. We all decided to take a picture looking up. I think I look silly, but so does everyone else so nyah!

Glitter Graphics

That, and I got my Shojo Beat ^_^

( Kam's monthly rant about Shojo Beat )

~^_^~

I GOT INTO OBERLIN COLLEGE!!!

*dances around the house*

*moonwalks and falls over a chair*

Okay, so Oberlin is known for it's performing arts program and is really really good and it's in Ohio and ahh... got nothing else to say except I'm 2-2 out of the 7 schools I applied for

Goucher- ACCEPTED!
Oberlin- ACCEPTED!

Daddy says his little girl is batting a thousand. I feel special ^_^


THEY WANT TO SEND ME OUT THERE FOR A WEEKEND AND THEY ARE PAYING FOR MY TICKET! *squeeeeeeall* No classes Friday the 6th of April and then the weekend ^_^!!

Yesss.... All finished ^_^

( Rant One: Memny aka the story they forgot to tell in Angel Sanctuary aka Just how much does it take for Lestat to lose his mind? aka CLAMP rules my soul. )

( Rant Two: Armand's story aka David, you can't have him aka Marius is a pedophile aka we finally know why Santino is so important aka How many names does Armand actually have? )

( A picture is worth a thousand words...aka possibly one of the most wrong pictures ever lol )

If I've said it once, I'll say it a million times.
Our Lovely Baralai


Must have been modeled off of ( this guy here )

Yuna, in the RP _catchphrase_ dearly misses her Gullwings. Rikku just joined, so she's happy ^_^. In honor of her newfound happiness, I drew a picture!

( Yu-Ri-Pa like no other! )

Enough sob stories for Kam and her lack of a boyfriend for white day. Know what? Screw it. I don't have a boyfriend, but I do have anime and games. So, here's to me!
( kinda pathetic, but now I can sleep tonight lol )

Yuna needs to stop attracting silver-haired men. As much fun as it is, I'm starting to see a pattern. It's really amusing.
annnddd.... as I write, I'm downloading BLEACH 71! You better hop on that and get bleached, everyone lol.

*Sniffle* I sooo which I was in Japan, celebrating white day today. From what I learned (as a kid reading AnimericaEXTRA... the predecessor to ShojoBEAT) White Day is the boy's Valentine's Day. While girl's give something like chocolate or presents to a boy they like on February 14th, boys reciprocate a month later. Traditionally, it was with something white, like marshmallows. Mmmm makes me happy to be a girl, as I wouldn't have had to have gotten chocolate.

Me hates chocolate, fer surree and will only eat chocolate if
a) it's really important, like a gift
or
b) it's mixed with something I like.
Ironic how my favorite ice cream is chocolate chip mint! XD Chocolate and mint is yummy. Chocolate, and even worse, caramel is blahh.... XP. I hate caramel even more.

BUT THIS IS BESIDES THE POINT!

So, white day. I wish I had a lovie who would send me yummy treats or a cute present on white day. You know, a lot of people are "Anti-Valentine's Day" and I can understand that. But to me, both days are soo cute, that I can't not participate. My friends the Valentine's Day past gave out three bouquets of roses to underclassmen and ourselves, regardless of the fact that our school was selling roses to give to your lovie. I was like..."No! We must wear red and frolick!"....so we did ^_^

But since White Day isn't participated here, it's like ;_;

Dear Armand,

I know you don't have your vampire powers yet and your organs are all intact, but could you please stop having sex every two minutes. I'm jealous. Kthxbai.

Dear Marius,
I know Armand doesn't have his vampire powers yet and his organs are still intact, but could you please stop forcing sex upon him every two minutes and your additional potions of love. I'm very jealous. Kthxbai.

Dear David,
I will allow you to be with Armand only if Marius is like no...

Other news: I finished Memnoch. After I finish Armand, you'll get your rant from me on both.